Review:  Keeping Faith: A Skeptic’s Journey

by Fenton Johnson


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Next Step in Evolution

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Marian Doctrines: Immaculate Conception & Assumption


Teenage Prostitution and the Nature of Evil

Allah Hu: "God is present here"
 
Adam and Steve

The Life is in the Blood

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Seeing with Different Eyes


The mystical experience at the Servites'  Castle in Riverside

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Toby's friend and nicknamesake Toby Marotta.

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Pay Me What I'm Worth by Souldancer

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Art That Dares by Kittredge Cherry

Coming Out, Coming Home by Kennth A. Burr

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Over Coffee: A conversation For Gay Partnership & Conservative Faith by D.a. Thompson

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Janet Planet by Eleanor Lerman

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Kali Rising by Rudolph Ballentine

The Missing Myth by Gilles Herrada

The Secret of the Second Coming by Howard E. Cook

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Missing Mary by Charlene Spretnak

Gay Spirituality 101 by Joe Perez

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Occam’s Razor by David Duncan

Grace and Demion by Mel White

Gay Men and The New Way Forward by Raymond L. Rigoglioso

The Dimensional Stucture of Consciousness by Samuel Avery

The Manly Pursuit of Desire and Love by Perry Brass

Love Together: Longtime Male Couples on Healthy Intimacy and Communication by Tim Clausen

War Between Materialism and Spiritual by Jean-Michel Bitar

The Serpent's Gift: Gnostic Reflections on the Study of Religion by Jeffrey J. Kripal

Esalen: America and the Religion of No Religion
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The Invitation to Love by Darren Pierre

Brain, Consciousness, and God: A Lonerganian Integration by Daniel A Helminiak

A Walk with Four Spiritual Guides by Andrew Harvey

Can Christians Be Saved? by Stephenson & Rhodes

The Lost Secrets of the Ancient Mystery Schools by Stephenson & Rhodes

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In Walt We Trust by John Marsh

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Aelred's Sin by Lawrence Scott

Fruit Basket by Payam Ghassemlou

Internal Landscapes by John Ollom

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Blood of the Goddess by William Schindler

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Roads of Excess, Palaces of Wisdom by Jeffrey Kripal

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Jesus in Salome's Lot by Brett W. Gillette

The Man Who Loved Birds by Fenton Johnson

The Vatican Murders by Lucien Gregoire

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The Soul Beneath the Skin by David Nimmons

Out on Holy Ground by Donald Boisvert

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The Crucifixion of Hyacinth by Geoff Puterbaugh

The Silence of Sodom by Mark D Jordan

It's Never About What It's About by Krandall Kraus and Paul Borja

ReCREATIONS, edited by Catherine Lake

Gospel: A Novel by WIlton Barnhard

Keeping Faith: A Skeptic’s Journey by Fenton Johnson

Scissors, Paper, Rock by Fenton Johnson



 What does Faith Mean Today?



Keeping Faith
Keeping Faith: A Skeptic’s Journey 


by Fenton Johnson

Houghton Mifflin, paperback, 336 pages, $19.95

November 2004


978-0312119249


Available from Amazon.com -- new and used -- paper and hard cover. Also available for Kindle.

Keeping Faith: A Skeptic's Journey



5 stars

This review appeared in White Crane Journal #60, Spring 2004

I loved this book. Beautifully written, academic but deeply personal, wide-ranging but simultaneously focused and disciplined (like a good meditation), Keeping Faith directly addresses the issues of modern spirituality—and gay spirituality in particular: how to understand and honor the spiritual quest that leads some people to eschew the normal life of marrying and raising a family in order to live as a monk (or at least a full-time, committed meditator) and to be sensible, modern, “scientific,” and psychologically-sophisticated at the same time. That is to say, what does “faith” mean today?

Fenton Johnson grew up in the little Kentucky town near the Trappist Abbey of Our Lady of Gethsemani, the monastery made popular, at least among Catholics, by Thomas Merton, probably the best known monk of modern times. Johnson’s family owned and operated the hotel-tavern in the town. He grew up, therefore, with an unusually insider’s view of monasticism. Tourists and visitors staying at the Inn would have come likely with the most traditional, mythologized, and medieval-like views of monks as near-disembodied spirits living a life of total absorption in God. The young Fenton, named for one of the monks at Gethsemani, grew up with these men as friends of his parents and frequent visitors in his mother’s kitchen where the monks occasionally escaped the cloister to come drink beer and carouse. What a perfect image of modern religious consciousness: we all know the  myths of what religion and Church are (and most of us feel them with a certain reverent nostalgia even if we’ve left the institution), yet we also now know the “truth” that priests and monks are just regular human beings like the rest of us, some even with personal foibles that are frankly against “the laws of both God and man,” and the Church as a politically driven, power-hungry institution often at odds with its own teachings. That is, we all inchoately know it’s a put-on. Yet beneath the pretense is potentially something crucially important and potentially life and soul-saving.

Keeping Faith opens with Johnson’s being invited coincidentally (??), while in town for his mother’s 80th birthday, to attend a convocation of Catholic and Buddhist monks, including the Dalai Lama, at Gethesmani Abbey in 1996. By that time, he was an openly gay man living in San Francisco, a veteran--and aggrieved widow--of the AIDS crisis, an observer of the Church’s ineptitude in dealing with gay issues, a sensible modern man who identified himself only as a former Catholic. He was also a writer (and later, we learn, a teacher of writing and an accomplished novelist), and the meeting of monks would make good material for an article, and, having been raised almost with the expectation he’d one day join the monastery, he says, he saw this as a chance for a quick look at the road not taken.

But the article became a book and the research a spiritual journey.

After the convocation, Johnson set out to learn a little more about Buddhist monasticism and meditation practice. The research took him to the S.F. Zen Center, the Center’s hot springs resort at Tassajara, and the Marin County Green Gulch Farm. Most importantly, it took him to his own zafu and into the stillness between breaths.

The book is alternatingly academic, reportorial, and intimately personal—all thoroughly interesting throughout. There are accounts of Eastern and Western history (ancient and modern), analyses of such figures as Buddha and Baker-Roshi, St. Antony of the Desert, Plato, and Augustine. There are interviews with monks and nuns, both Catholic and Zen. There are accounts of the author’s upbringing and adult life as a gay man. There’s even a poignant and sensitive discursus in the middle of the book on priestly pedophilia and secret sexuality. But, most of all, there is an ongoing investigation into the proper nature of faith in contemporary consciousness.

Faith, Johnson concludes, is always a leap into the unknown, into change with no preconceptions of the outcome. Not insistence on dogma or orthodoxy, true faith is the willingness to embrace experience—the great mystery and miracle of life--out of love for knowledge, beauty, and truth. True faith isn’t being right, it’s having a reason for hope.

I’ll repeat my first sentence: I loved this book. It’s beautifully written and a joy to read if only for the style. In a way Fenton Johnson’s homosexuality is tangential to his search for the meaning of faith and in a way it’s central. It is his ability to hold both polarities--East and West, ancient and modern, faithful and skeptical--all at the same time that makes his discoveries meaningful and satisfying. Such wideness of spirit, of course, is incumbent on all people of faith and good will. But the reality is that many of them (too many!) fail—and their handling of gay issues in modern society is a major indicator of their success or failure. Gay people are called upon by something deep inside us to accomplish that wideness of spirit. That, I think, is probably the essence of “gay spirituality.” Fenton Johnson’s contribution is notable.

Fenton Johnson’s Keeping Faith: A Skeptic’s Journey won a Lambda Literary Award in the category of Spirituality (beating out this reviewer's also nominated book Gay Perspective).
 


Reviewed by Toby Johnson, author of Gay Spirituality: Gay Identity and the Transformation of Human Consciousness, The Myth of the Great Secret: An Appreciation of Joseph Campbell and other novels and books


 




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Toby Johnson, PhD is author of eight books: three non-fiction books that apply the wisdom of his teacher and "wise old man," Joseph Campbell to modern-day social and religious problems, three gay genre novels that dramatize spiritual issues at the heart of gay identity, and two books on gay men's spiritualities and the mystical experience of homosexuality. In addition to the novels featured elsewhere in this web site, Johnson is author of IN SEARCH OF GOD IN THE SEXUAL UNDERWORLD and THE MYTH OF THE GREAT SECRET (Revised edition): AN APPRECIATION OF JOSEPH CAMPBELL.

Johnson's Lammy Award winning book GAY SPIRITUALITY: The Role of Gay Identity in the Transformation of Human Consciousness was published in 2000. His Lammy-nominated book  GAY PERSPECTIVE: Things Our Homosexuality Tells Us about the Nature of God and the Universe was published by Alyson in 2003. Both books are available now from Lethe Press.

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