Table of Contents
Also on this website:
SPIRITUALITY: The Role of
Gay Identity in the Transformation of Human Consciousness
Things Our Homosexuality Tells Us about the Nature
of God and the Universe
MATTER: updated, revised & expanded edition from Lethe Press
with Afterword by Mark Jordan
LIFE IN PERSPECTIVE: A romance novel set in the 1980s and the 1890s.
THE FOURTH QUILL, a
novel about attitudinal healing and the problem of evil
TWO SPIRITS: A Story of Life with the
Navajo, a collaboration with Walter L. Williams
CHARMED LIVES: Spinning Straw into
Gold: Reclaiming Our Queer Spirituality Through Story
A NOVEL ABOUT HEALING.
Books on Gay Spirituality:
Crane Gay Spirituality Series
Toby's review of Samuel Avery's The
Dimensional Structure of
Coincidence: "Aliens Settle in San
Simple Answer to the Gay Marriage Debate
Why gay people should NOT Marry
Wedding Cake Liberation
Gay Marriage in Texas
Shame on the American People
The "highest form of love"
Second March on
Bifurcation of Gay Spirituality
cause of homosexuality
origins of homophobia
about Jungian ideas in gay consciousness
What is homosexuality?
is Gay Spirituality?
What Jesus said about Gay
Common Experiences Unique to Gay
Is there a "uniquely gay
The purpose of homosexuality
The Reincarnation of Edward
The Gay Succession
Interview on the Nature of
What the Bible Says about
Mesosexual Ideal for Straight Men
of Gay Spirituality
of Gay Liberation Activity
Why Gay Spirituality: Spirituality
as Artistic Medium
Easton Mountain Retreat Center
Andrew Harvey &
Spirituality Summit in May 2004 and
the "Statement of Spirituality"
"It's Always About You"
The myth of the
Joseph Campbell's description of
Avalokiteshvara at the Baths.
Not A Wave
What is Enlightenment?
What is reincarnation?
How many lifetimes in an ego?
Emptiness & Religious Ideas
Experiencing experiencing experiencing
Going into the Light
Meditations for a Funeral
The way to get to heaven
Buddha's father was right
Advice to Travelers to India
The Danda Nata
& goddess Kalika
Nate Berkus is a bodhisattva
John Boswell was Immanuel Kant
The Two Loves
Toby Johnson Believes
The Joseph Campbell Connection
Campbell & The Pre/Trans Fallacy
The Nature of Religion
What's true about
Gay is a Blessing
Drawing Long Straws
Gay Spiritual Functions
The subtle workings of the spirit in gay men's lives.
The Sinfulness of
for a study of gay nondualism
"The Evolution of Gay Identity"
"St. John of the
Dark Night of the Soul."
Let Me Tell You a Secret
Religious Articulations of the
The Collective Unconscious
Driving as Spiritual Practice
Step in Evolution
The Moulting of the Holy Ghost
is a Bodhisattva
The Hero's Journey as archetype
Immaculate Conception & Assumption
Prostitution and the Nature of Evil
Hu: "God is present here"
The Life is in the Blood
retirement and the "freelance monastery"
Seeing with Different Eyes
experience at the Servites' Castle in Riverside
Great Dance according to C.S.Lewis
The Techniques Of The World Saviors
Part 1: Brer Rabbit and the
Part 2: The
Part 3: Jesus
and the Resurrection
Part 4: A
Course in Miracles
Secret of the Clear Light
Understanding the Clear Light
Souls Get Reincarnated
In honor of Sir Arthur C Clarke
Karellen was a homosexual
About Alien Abduction
are you looking for in a gay science fiction novel?
about Gay Mental Health
Ideas for gay
Kip and Toby,
and nicknamesake Toby Marotta.
Harry Hay, Founder of the gay movement
About Hay and The New Myth
About Karl Heinrich Ulrichs, the first
man to really "come out"
Michael Talbot, gay mystic
About Fr. Bernard Lynch
About Richard Baltzell
About Guy Mannheimer
About David Weyrauch
About Dennis Paddie
About Ask the Fire
About Arthur Evans
About Christopher Larkin
About Sterling Houston
About Michael Stevens
Our friend Tom Nash
Be Done on Earth
by Howard E. Cook
Pay Me What I'm Worth by
The Way Out by Christopher
The Gay Disciple by John Henson
Art That Dares by Kittredge Cherry
Coming Out, Coming Home by Kennth
the Light by B. Alan Bourgeois
Over Coffee: A conversation For Gay
Partnership & Conservative Faith by D.a. Thompson
Dark Knowledge by
Janet Planet by Eleanor
Kairos by Paul E. Hartman
with Jesus by D.K.Maylor
Kali Rising by Rudolph
Missing Myth by Gilles Herrada
Secret of the Second Coming by Howard E. Cook
The Scar Letters: A Novel
by Richard Alther
Future is Queer by Labonte & Schimel
by Charlene Spretnak
Spirituality 101 by Joe Perez
Cut Hand: A
Nineteeth Century Love Story on the American Frontier by Mark Wildyr
by Eleanor Lerman
Rizzoli by Felice Picano
to Unlocking the Closet Door by Chelsea Griffo
The Door of the
Heart by Diana Finfrock Farrar
by David Duncan
and Demion by Mel White
Gay Men and The New Way Forward by Raymond L.
Dimensional Stucture of Consciousness by Samuel Avery
Manly Pursuit of Desire and Love by Perry Brass
Partners since 1984, Kip Dollar and Toby Johnson have worked together
in the gay cause in San Antonio, then in Austin, then out in the
country in Conifer and Wimberley and then in cyberspace for White Crane
Journal and Lethe Press.
In the mid-1980s, Toby and Kip were living in San Antonio. Toby had
been Secretary, then Male Co-Chair of SAGA (San Antonio Gay Alliance).
They were present for the start of San Antonio's gay business
association, ABC, the Alamo Business Council. Here's a history of the
origins of that organization.
Alamo Business Council History
In summer of 1984 a rep (maybe named Werner) from the
National Association of Business Councils (NABC) based in New York City
came to San Antonio to help organize a San Antonio business
association. He contacted Michael Stevens who was editor of The
Calendar (the publication of San Antonio Gay Alliance, the organization
Michael Stevens founded in 1980. The Calendar started out as a SAGA
newsletter but then became an independent publication distributed in
gay community bars and businesses.
Michael called a group together to meet with the national organizer. We
met in the late afternoon at Lollie Johnson’s bar at 3503 West Ave,
From that meeting the effort began to develop an organization aimed to
strengthen the local gay community by identifying and connecting
various businesses run by and for gay men and lesbians. It paralleled
the Tavern Guild in the sense of being an association of business
owners, but the Tavern Guild was simply bar owners, the business
association would be for the rest of the community. In fact, these were
the advertisers in The Calendar (mostly realtors).
There was a “Business Council Meeting” on Thursday August 9. Then after
Oct 16, there was an ABC meeting 3 weeks in a row on Tuesday nights at
7:30 at Jim Halloran’s home on Rosewood nr Fredericksburg. The meeting
after Oct 23 were ReMax.
The original male and female co-chairs were Jim Halloran and Barbara
Havard (Barbara’s office was at the ReMax office behind the old Central
Park Mall at Rector and Blanco). Kip Dollar was Treasurer of the
original interim board (Kip’s name is shown as the registrant for the
assumed name certificate.) Vice-President was Hans Bloemen.
The initial meetings were at Jim Halloran’s home on Rosewood. After a
couple of those meetings, when it looked like there would be sufficient
interest to forge ahead, Barbara Havard let us use the conference room
in her ReMax office for general meetings. Meetings of the officers
continued at Jim’s house on Rosewood, where we worked on bylaws later
put to general vote.
Among original members were (maybe?) Clark Niblock, Byron Trott,
Russell McCauley, Dana DiCastro and Fred Idar, Barbara Havard and Julee
French, Patrick Lombrano and Steve Parker, Michael Stevens and Patrick
Kerr, Toby Johnson and Kip Dollar, Pat Westbrook, Rudy Gonzalez and
John Mitchell, Cataria Reyes (sp?)…
Tues, Dec 4, there was an ABC meeting with Hap Veltman, an attorney and
entrepreneur with prominence in both the gay and general communities.
Hap was owner of the Bonham and previous owner the San Antonio Country.
He was also a member of the Board of SAGA.
An early ABC event was a fairly large hotel dinner at which Hap was the
Guest of Honor. It was held at the Marriott RiverWalk – one of the
members Dana DiCastro was Director of food and beverage there and a
number of gay community events happened at the Marriott. (That might be
the Dec 4 event.) This was the first public subscription event
for the ABC, and was both a PR vehicle (displaying the existence of the
group and its ability to pull off the event) and a public service
(acknowledgment of Hap’s prominent role in the community). It was
deemed a success that ticket sales covered costs with a modest
A second public event produced by ABC was a bus trip to Lyle’s Deck in
South Padre Island in the Spring of 1985 (April 13th 1985). After
planning had been completed but prior to the actual trip, Jim Halloran
resigned as co-chair due to upcoming relocation for professional
reasons. Hans Bloemen assumed the role of President.
Following the beach excursion ABC activities were confined to periodic
meetings of the membership and activities directed to enlarging
The emerging AIDS epidemic had a varied impact on the group.
Initiatives such as the “Blood Sisters” campaign to encourage lesbians
to donate blood to compensate for the prohibition of donation by gay
men were not an official function of ABC but were largely overseen by
ABC members and publicized using ABC communication channels. Likewise,
the SAFE Week project originally begun by Jim Halloran to address
public health issues (particularly STDs) in the gay population garnered
much ABC support though it was not an official ABC project.
ABC activities began to taper off, probably due to a number of causes.
Certainly the growing AIDS epidemic fostered concern and created
stressors within the gay and lesbian as well as the general community,
especially in the early days when little was reliably known about the
illness and assumptions about transmission later proven false gained
attention in the media. One of the other early presidents was Harold
McKenzie. For a period the group became nearly dormant, existing in
name but with little public activity.
The group was revived through the efforts of a new President, Russell
Allen. Russell had moved to San Antonio from Houston to work for
the San Antonio symphony. He had been very active with the Executive
and Professional Association of Houston (EPAH, an organization with
objectives similar to those of the ABC but with a much larger
membership base and better developed management structure.) Russell
capitalized on his EPAH connections to help strengthen ABC operations.
There was a second trip to Lyle’s Deck later. Russell Allen attended
the second trip, I believe. There was also a group trip to Galveston;
we went on a cruise ship (casino?) around Galveston Bay. And there was
trip in 1985 to a party sponsored by EPAH at the home of a wealthy
member near the Galleria.
Russell brought the model of Houston EPAH to San Antonio; he was
invited by the ABC board to give a new burst of enthusiasm to ABC. He
became the second or third president and revamped the organization into
the social club it then became and flourished.
About SAGA -- the San Antonio Gay Alliance
When I arrived in San Antonio in Oct 1981 after a decade in San
Francisco, Michael Stevens (with Patrick Kerr) was the head of SAGA. I
rather quickly became a sort of protege because I’d been involved with
gay activism in S.F.. I had just gotten a computer — an Apple II + —
and volunteered to keep the mailing list. That was a major
technological feat at that time. In that role, I was elected or
appointed Secretary of SAGA.
I don’t remember dates for now all this happened.
Michael started The Calendar as the newsletter of SAGA, then wanted to
take it private and run it as a business (making its own income and not
depending on SAGA). Michael retired from head of SAGA. Nancy Hauser and
I were elected co-chairs.
Over several years, The Board included Hap Veltman, James Simmons, Dub
Daugherty, Dana DiCastro, Rudy Gonzalez, Julee French, Martha Prentice
(??), Barbara Havard (??), Lollie Johnson, Nicki Valdez, Byron Trott,
David Mitchell (the attorney), Steve Parker, Steve Zurich (??)
Tony Zule (??) Lynn Grainey (??) , John Moore, And, maybe, Franklin
Raines and/or Francis Chiappetta. Tippy Timmons(???), Wayne
Kinzel (??), Sonny Byrd, Ed Buckmaster.
My, that is lot of names. Maybe too many. Some of these may also have been board members for AHRC and/or the AIDS organizations
AIDS got very serious during this time; a lot of energy went into the
two or three AIDS Foundations that developed (one under Beverly Smith,
one under Papa Bear, and another sort of group under an Air Force M.D.
at Lackland, maybe named John O'Neill, who was very active as an AIDS
doctor in the Air Force.)
Under my leadership, along with Michael’s original ideas, SAGA focused
on visibility and getting news attention to the existence and plight of
gay people and later people with AIDS.
As AIDS got bad, the Board determined this visibility campaign was
potentially counterproductive and that SAGA should focus more on events
within the gay/lesbian community and with supporting the AIDS
organizations and not with making news or being openly gay. As the
emphasis in the board change, I was urged by Dana DiCastro to step
aside and let a new, less activist board take over.