Table of Contents
Also on this website:
SPIRITUALITY: The Role of
Gay Identity in the Transformation of Human Consciousness
Things Our Homosexuality Tells Us about the Nature
of God and the Universe
MATTER: updated, revised & expanded edition from Lethe Press
with Afterword by Mark Jordan
LIFE IN PERSPECTIVE: A romance novel set in the 1980s and the 1890s.
THE FOURTH QUILL, a
novel about attitudinal healing and the problem of evil
TWO SPIRITS: A Story of Life with the
Navajo, a collaboration with Walter L. Williams
CHARMED LIVES: Spinning Straw into
Gold: Reclaiming Our Queer Spirituality Through Story
A NOVEL ABOUT HEALING.
Books on Gay Spirituality:
Crane Gay Spirituality Series
Toby's review of Samuel Avery's The
Dimensional Structure of
Coincidence: "Aliens Settle in San
Simple Answer to the Gay Marriage Debate
Why gay people should NOT Marry
Wedding Cake Liberation
Gay Marriage in Texas
Shame on the American People
The "highest form of love"
Second March on
Bifurcation of Gay Spirituality
cause of homosexuality
origins of homophobia
about Jungian ideas in gay consciousness
What is homosexuality?
is Gay Spirituality?
What Jesus said about Gay
Common Experiences Unique to Gay
The purpose of homosexuality
Interview on the Nature of
What the Bible Says about
Mesosexual Ideal for Straight Men
of Gay Spirituality
of Gay Liberation Activity
Why Gay Spirituality: Spirituality
as Artistic Medium
Easton Mountain Retreat Center
Andrew Harvey &
Spirituality Summit in May 2004 and
the "Statement of Spirituality"
"It's Always About You"
The myth of the
Joseph Campbell's description of
Avalokiteshvara at the Baths.
Not A Wave
What is Enlightenment?
What is reincarnation?
How many lifetimes in an ego?
Emptiness & Religious Ideas
Experiencing experiencing experiencing
Going into the Light
Meditations for a Funeral
The way to get to heaven
Advice to Travelers to India
The Danda Nata
& goddess Kalika
Nate Berkus is a bodhisattva
John Boswell was Immanuel Kant
The Two Loves
Toby Johnson Believes
The Joseph Campbell Connection
Campbell & The Pre/Trans Fallacy
The Nature of Religion
What's true about
Gay is a Blessing
Drawing Long Straws
Gay Spiritual Functions
The subtle workings of the spirit in gay men's lives.
The Sinfulness of
for a study of gay nondualism
"The Evolution of Gay Identity"
"St. John of the
Dark Night of the Soul."
Let Me Tell You a Secret
Religious Articulations of the
The Collective Unconscious
Driving as Spiritual Practice
Step in Evolution
The Moulting of the Holy Ghost
is a Bodhisattva
The Hero's Journey as archetype
Immaculate Conception & Assumption
Prostitution and the Nature of Evil
Hu: "God is present here"
The Life is in the Blood
retirement and the "freelance monastery"
Seeing with Different Eyes
experience at the Servites' Castle in Riverside
Great Dance according to C.S.Lewis
The Techniques Of The World Saviors
Part 1: Brer Rabbit and the
Part 2: The
Part 3: Jesus
and the Resurrection
Part 4: A
Course in Miracles
Secret of the Clear Light
Understanding the Clear Light
Souls Get Reincarnated
In honor of Sir Arthur C Clarke
Karellen was a homosexual
About Alien Abduction
are you looking for in a gay science fiction novel?
about Gay Mental Health
Ideas for gay
Kip and Toby,
and nicknamesake Toby Marotta.
Harry Hay, Founder of the gay movement
About Hay and The New Myth
About Karl Heinrich Ulrichs, the first
man to really "come out"
Michael Talbot, gay mystic
About Fr. Bernard Lynch
About Richard Baltzell
About Guy Mannheimer
About David Weyrauch
About Dennis Paddie
About Ask the Fire
About Arthur Evans
About Christopher Larkin
About Sterling Houston
About Michael Stevens
Our friend Tom Nash
Be Done on Earth
by Howard E. Cook
Pay Me What I'm Worth by
The Way Out by Christopher
The Gay Disciple by John Henson
Art That Dares by Kittredge Cherry
Coming Out, Coming Home by Kennth
the Light by B. Alan Bourgeois
Over Coffee: A conversation For Gay
Partnership & Conservative Faith by D.a. Thompson
Dark Knowledge by
Janet Planet by Eleanor
Kairos by Paul E. Hartman
with Jesus by D.K.Maylor
Kali Rising by Rudolph
Missing Myth by Gilles Herrada
Secret of the Second Coming by Howard E. Cook
The Scar Letters: A Novel
by Richard Alther
Future is Queer by Labonte & Schimel
by Charlene Spretnak
Spirituality 101 by Joe Perez
Cut Hand: A
Nineteeth Century Love Story on the American Frontier by Mark Wildyr
by Eleanor Lerman
Rizzoli by Felice Picano
to Unlocking the Closet Door by Chelsea Griffo
The Door of the
Heart by Diana Finfrock Farrar
by David Duncan
and Demion by Mel White
Gay Men and The New Way Forward by Raymond L.
Dimensional Stucture of Consciousness by Samuel Avery
Manly Pursuit of Desire and Love by Perry Brass
Why "Gay" Spirituality?
"spirituality" has a variety of meanings.
One of the important meanings is "technique." That is, spiritualities
are techniques and methods of religious practice that aim at altering
and transforming human personality in order to achieve harmony with
In that sense, spiritualities are like artistic media: pastel,
watercolor, oil, acrylic, collage, etc. These are not at odds with one
another. They simply have different effects. And different artists are
drawn to and talented in the various different media. In that sense,
then, they represent different ways of "spirit" manifesting itself in
time and space.
Different people respond to different spiritualities.
Women, for instance, would be particularly resonant to ideas about time
and change, to images of the moon, to fluctuations in feelings, and the
cyclic flow of life. These are manifestations in consciousness of the
dynamics of menstruation.
Heterosexual men are particularly resonant to ideas
conquest, strength, competition, winning the race. These flow out of
the heterosexual male mind. They reflect men's experience of sex.
Gay men respond to ideas and images of beauty and
Gay men are less likely to feel comfortable with competition.
Christianity has a particularly straight male
in its spirituality and imagery. The "saint" denies his feelings,
strives to conquer himself, to compete with other men to be right in
his thinking about divine truth, pushes himself to achieve the goal of
afterlife in heaven, does not succumb to the temptations of beauty and
A "gay spirituality" then might seem inconsistent
mainstream methods of Christianity. Gay consciousness does not focus as
much on duality and conflict, on self-control and subjugation of
feelings, on reproduction of offspring and responsibility to future
These aren't at odds with each other, anymore than
painting with pastel. But they ARE different.
In fact, the male dominant tendency to see
difference causes the Christian male-dominated worldview to interpret
homosexuality and gay consciousness as a threat.
One of the major contributions to the evolution of
consciousness that gay identity offers is the vision of different
perspectives. Straight people would do well to learn that the so-called
"straight perspective" is just one possibile way of viewing the world.
And traditionally this perspective has caused an awful lot of the
suffering and "evil" in the world. Indeed, one might argue that the
teachings of Jesus were really all about getting beyond those male
dominant ideas about competition and conquest, replacing them with
feelings of compassion, sympathy, and love.
The answer then to "why gay spirituality?" is that
traits in consciousness result in gay people's seeing the world--and
God--differently. Gay people (and gay men are different from lesbians
in this regard) need gay spiritual images to resonate with in their
We need a God who isn't patriarchal and demanding--like
straight male boss--or rule giving, but is loving and maternal. We need
a God who isn't so concerned with reproducing offspring and keeping
procreation in control for the sake of genetic purity, and who IS
concerned about the beauty of the world and the pleasure that
embodiment can proffer.
Why gay spirituality? For all gay people, by virtue of being aware of
being gay (men perhaps a little more than women), being gay is THE most
significant thing about who one is. Whether one is happy with it or
not, that one is gay colors every experience. You're always aware of
it. Nobody ever forgets they're gay. Since that is such a major aspect
of our consciousness, our religious and spiritual experiences should
arise out of that context in such a way as to improve and enhance our
experience of life.
Our spiritual practice should arise from our gayness. Our spiritual
wisdom--our understanding of the world and of the meaning and purpose
of life--should arise from our gayness. Because, in fact, it does,
whether we know it or acknowledge it.
Homosexuality is a kind of religious vocation, a "calling," that seems
impossible not to answer to. In the mythic terms of religion, this
calling is the voice of God telling you who you should love and bond
with, your soul showing you how to follow your destiny.
To not understand one's homosexuality as a religious experience is to
miss the best part of it. Our homosexuality is the eye with which we
see God. And, in Meister
Eckhart's famous aphorism, "the eye with which I see God is the eye
with which God sees me." That is, how we deal with our homosexuality is
how God will see us. That we transform our homosexuality into something
life-affirming, life- and love-fulfilling, participating, contributing
to the evolution of human consciousness is how we "prove ourselves to
(read more about what Toby Johnson thinks "God"
of Gay Spirituality