Table of Contents
Also on this website:
SPIRITUALITY: The Role of
Gay Identity in the Transformation of Human Consciousness
Things Our Homosexuality Tells Us about the Nature
of God and the Universe
MATTER: updated, revised & expanded edition from Lethe Press
with Afterword by Mark Jordan
LIFE IN PERSPECTIVE: A romance novel set in the 1980s and the 1890s.
THE FOURTH QUILL, a
novel about attitudinal healing and the problem of evil
TWO SPIRITS: A Story of Life with the
Navajo, a collaboration with Walter L. Williams
CHARMED LIVES: Spinning Straw into
Gold: Reclaiming Our Queer Spirituality Through Story
A NOVEL ABOUT HEALING.
Books on Gay Spirituality:
Crane Gay Spirituality Series
Toby's review of Samuel Avery's The
Dimensional Structure of
Coincidence: "Aliens Settle in San
Simple Answer to the Gay Marriage Debate
Why gay people should NOT Marry
Wedding Cake Liberation
Gay Marriage in Texas
Shame on the American People
The "highest form of love"
Second March on
Bifurcation of Gay Spirituality
cause of homosexuality
origins of homophobia
about Jungian ideas in gay consciousness
What is homosexuality?
is Gay Spirituality?
What Jesus said about Gay
Common Experiences Unique to Gay
The purpose of homosexuality
Interview on the Nature of
What the Bible Says about
Mesosexual Ideal for Straight Men
of Gay Spirituality
of Gay Liberation Activity
Why Gay Spirituality: Spirituality
as Artistic Medium
Easton Mountain Retreat Center
Andrew Harvey &
Spirituality Summit in May 2004 and
the "Statement of Spirituality"
"It's Always About You"
The myth of the
Joseph Campbell's description of
Avalokiteshvara at the Baths.
Not A Wave
What is Enlightenment?
What is reincarnation?
How many lifetimes in an ego?
Emptiness & Religious Ideas
Experiencing experiencing experiencing
Going into the Light
Meditations for a Funeral
The way to get to heaven
Advice to Travelers to India
The Danda Nata
& goddess Kalika
Nate Berkus is a bodhisattva
John Boswell was Immanuel Kant
The Two Loves
Toby Johnson Believes
The Joseph Campbell Connection
Campbell & The Pre/Trans Fallacy
The Nature of Religion
What's true about
Gay is a Blessing
Drawing Long Straws
Gay Spiritual Functions
The subtle workings of the spirit in gay men's lives.
The Sinfulness of
for a study of gay nondualism
"The Evolution of Gay Identity"
"St. John of the
Dark Night of the Soul."
Let Me Tell You a Secret
Religious Articulations of the
The Collective Unconscious
Driving as Spiritual Practice
Step in Evolution
The Moulting of the Holy Ghost
is a Bodhisattva
The Hero's Journey as archetype
Immaculate Conception & Assumption
Prostitution and the Nature of Evil
Hu: "God is present here"
The Life is in the Blood
retirement and the "freelance monastery"
Seeing with Different Eyes
experience at the Servites' Castle in Riverside
Great Dance according to C.S.Lewis
The Techniques Of The World Saviors
Part 1: Brer Rabbit and the
Part 2: The
Part 3: Jesus
and the Resurrection
Part 4: A
Course in Miracles
Secret of the Clear Light
Understanding the Clear Light
Souls Get Reincarnated
In honor of Sir Arthur C Clarke
Karellen was a homosexual
About Alien Abduction
are you looking for in a gay science fiction novel?
about Gay Mental Health
Ideas for gay
Kip and Toby,
and nicknamesake Toby Marotta.
Harry Hay, Founder of the gay movement
About Hay and The New Myth
About Karl Heinrich Ulrichs, the first
man to really "come out"
Michael Talbot, gay mystic
About Fr. Bernard Lynch
About Richard Baltzell
About Guy Mannheimer
About David Weyrauch
About Dennis Paddie
About Ask the Fire
About Arthur Evans
About Christopher Larkin
About Sterling Houston
About Michael Stevens
Our friend Tom Nash
Be Done on Earth
by Howard E. Cook
Pay Me What I'm Worth by
The Way Out by Christopher
The Gay Disciple by John Henson
Art That Dares by Kittredge Cherry
Coming Out, Coming Home by Kennth
the Light by B. Alan Bourgeois
Over Coffee: A conversation For Gay
Partnership & Conservative Faith by D.a. Thompson
Dark Knowledge by
Janet Planet by Eleanor
Kairos by Paul E. Hartman
with Jesus by D.K.Maylor
Kali Rising by Rudolph
Missing Myth by Gilles Herrada
Secret of the Second Coming by Howard E. Cook
The Scar Letters: A Novel
by Richard Alther
Future is Queer by Labonte & Schimel
by Charlene Spretnak
Spirituality 101 by Joe Perez
Cut Hand: A
Nineteeth Century Love Story on the American Frontier by Mark Wildyr
by Eleanor Lerman
Rizzoli by Felice Picano
to Unlocking the Closet Door by Chelsea Griffo
The Door of the
Heart by Diana Finfrock Farrar
by David Duncan
and Demion by Mel White
Gay Men and The New Way Forward by Raymond L.
Dimensional Stucture of Consciousness by Samuel Avery
Manly Pursuit of Desire and Love by Perry Brass
Here's a way of understanding the notion of the "Clear
The Tibetan Book of the Dead uses the convention of
lights as the entry to the different possible realms of reincarnation
(called the six lokas: heaven, hell, human, hungry ghosts, angry
In the afterlife state (called the bardo), for
you might see a smoky light off to the left and a bright white
light beside it. These lights lead to the loka of hell. These lights
look especially attractive if your karma is full of anger. If you enter
there, you'll reincarnate as a denizen of hell. It will be hard to get
out of there. You'll have to wait to be reincarnated as a human to ever
get another try at Buddhahood.
A dull red light leads to the loka of the hungry
Red looks attractive to souls whose karma is full of attachment. A
green light leads to the loka of the angry gods. It looks attractive to
souls whose karma is full of jealousy.
It's always better to choose the brighter light than
duller, but ideally you won't choose any of these lights (blue, white,
yellow, red, green, or rainbow) and so avoid reincarnation at all. If
you can hold out long enough and pass all the way through the bardo,
you can get back to the clear light. But most souls end up at a place
where they see their old lives and get reattached to having a body and
then inadvertently get reincarnated again. (There's an interesting
twist on this image that's presented in the short essay How Gay
Souls Get Reincarnated.)
Indeed, before any of these colored lights were seen,
were given a chance to enter buddhahood directly. That's what called
the experience of the Clear Light at the moment of death.
What's "clear light"?
It's not white light. White comes later; it actually
to hell. And white isn't "clear." It's white. "Clear" means you can't
see it at all. You see right through it.
The "clear light" that we're seeing through all the
throughout our lives is the light we're giving off ourselves, i.e., the
light other people see us by.
We see right through this light as though it weren't
but it is really surrounding us, isn't it? To all the other people in
the world, it's us. It's what others see us as.
Mixing a little Catholic Purgatory mythology into this
understanding, we might consider that what Purgatory means is seeing
the truth of what was really going on during one's life. People live in
delusions. They don't know what other people are thinking, especially
about them. So maybe Purgatory is getting to know what others were
thinking, what was really motivating them in their dealings with you,
what was really going on in your dealings with them.
It might really be quite purgative--even punishing--to
what was really going on during one's life.
Maybe that is what the "Clear Light" refers to. It's
ourselves as others see us.
In the poem "To a Louse," the poet Robert Burns
this wisdom like this:
Oh, that God would give us the very smallest
The Clear Light is the truth.
To be able to see ourselves as others see us
It would save us from many mistakes
and foolish thoughts
We would change the way we look and gesture
and to how and what we apply our time and attention.
Perhaps the image functions on an even deeper reality. In esoteric
physiology, it's said human beings have several layers or sheathes or
bodies in which we reside. The physical body is the most obvious; it is
enlivened by the vital body, which in turn is experienced and directed
by the mental body, etc.
The last and most subtle of these bodies is the radiant body; it's that
"organ of consciousness" that radiates karmic vibes. It's what some
people see as the aura, and maybe what psychics experience as telepathy.
The radiant body is giving off an even clearer light. It's so clear
nobody sees it. It's the karma of our lives and it shows up in the
lives of people who live after us. It's our spiritual effect on the
To see the Clear Light, then, would mean to realize the karma you're
transmitting out into the collective consciousness of Earth.
According to the Tibetan Book of the Dead, if you choose the Clear
Light at the moment of death, you avoid the bardo altogether. You go
right into Buddhahood and are freed from reincarnation. You become the
bliss of the Buddha.
At every moment in our lives, we can make the effort to see ourselves
as others see us, we can make the effort to see what kind of karma
we're incurring for future generations.
This would change the way we live. It would make our lives blissful, it
would make life "heaven on earth."
Souls Get Reincarnated
Secret of the Clear Light
Seeing with Different