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Toby Johnson's books:

Toby's books are available as ebooks from smashwords.com, the Apple iBookstore, etc.


Finding Your Own True Myth - The Myth of the Great Secret III

FINDING YOUR OWN TRUE MYTH: What I Learned from Joseph Campbell: The Myth of the Great Secret III


Gay Spirituality

GAY SPIRITUALITY: The Role of Gay Identity in the Transformation of Human Consciousness


Gay Perspective


GAY PERSPECTIVE: Things Our Homosexuality Tells Us about the Nature of God and the Universe


Secret Matter


SECRET MATTER, a sci-fi novel with wonderful "aliens" with an Afterword by Mark Jordan


Getting Life

GETTING LIFE IN PERSPECTIVE:  A Fantastical Gay Romance set in two different time periods


The Fourth Quill

THE FOURTH QUILL, a novel about attitudinal healing and the problem of evil




Two Spirits
TWO SPIRITS: A Story of Life with the Navajo, a collaboration with Walter L. Williams



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CHARMED LIVES: Spinning Straw into Gold: GaySpirit in Storytelling, a collaboration with Steve Berman and some 30 other writers


Myth of the Great Secret


THE MYTH OF THE GREAT SECRET: An Appreciation of Joseph Campbell



In Search of God


IN SEARCH OF GOD IN THE SEXUAL UNDERWORLD: A Mystical Journey



Unpublished manuscripts


About ordering


Books on Gay Spirituality:

White Crane Gay Spirituality Series


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  Toby has done five podcasts with Harry Faddis for The Quest of Life

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  Articles and Excerpts:

Review of Samuel Avery's The Dimensional Structure of Consciousness


Funny Coincidence: "Aliens Settle in San Francisco"


About Liberty Books, the Lesbian/Gay Bookstore for Austin, 1986-1996


The Simple Answer to the Gay Marriage Debate


A Bifurcation of Gay Spirituality


Why gay people should NOT Marry


The Scriptural Basis for Same Sex Marriage


Toby and Kip Get Married


Wedding Cake Liberation


Gay Marriage in Texas


What's ironic



Shame on the American People


The "highest form of love"


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Gay Consciousness


Why homosexuality is a sin


The cause of homosexuality


The origins of homophobia


Q&A about Jungian ideas in gay consciousness


What is homosexuality?


What is Gay Spirituality?


My three messages


What Jesus said about Gay Rights


Queering religion


Common Experiences Unique to Gay Men


Is there a "uniquely gay perspective"?


The purpose of homosexuality


Interview on the Nature of Homosexuality


What the Bible Says about Homosexuality


Mesosexual Ideal for Straight Men



Varieties of Gay Spirituality


Waves of Gay Liberation Activity


The Gay Succession


Wouldn’t You Like to Be Uranian?


The Reincarnation of Edward Carpenter


Why Gay Spirituality: Spirituality as Artistic Medium


Easton Mountain Retreat Center


Andrew Harvey & Spiritual Activism


The Mysticism of Andrew Harvey


The upsidedown book on MSNBC


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Enlightenment


"It's Always About You"



The myth of the Bodhisattva Avalokitesvara


Joseph Campbell's description of Avalokiteshvara


You're Not A Wave



Joseph Campbell Talks about Aging



What is Enlightenment?



What is reincarnation?



How many lifetimes in an ego?



Emptiness & Religious Ideas



Experiencing experiencing experiencing



Going into the Light



Meditations for a Funeral



Meditation Practice



The way to get to heaven



Buddha's father was right



What Anatman means



Advice to Travelers to India & Nepal



The Danda Nata & goddess Kalika



Nate Berkus is a bodhisattva



John Boswell was Immanuel Kant



Cutting edge realization



The Myth of the Wanderer



Change: Source of Suffering & of Bliss



World Navel



What the Vows Really Mean



Manifesting from the Subtle Realms



The Three-layer Cake & the Multiverse


The est Training and Personal Intention



Effective Dreaming in Ursula LeGuin's The Lathe of Heaven


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Gay Spirituality


Curious Bodies


What Toby Johnson Believes


The Joseph Campbell Connection


The Mann Ranch (& Rich Gabrielson)


Campbell & The Pre/Trans Fallacy


The Two Loves


The Nature of Religion


What's true about Religion


Being Gay is a Blessing


Drawing Long Straws


Freedom of Religion


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The Gay Agenda


Gay Saintliness


Gay Spiritual Functions



The subtle workings of the spirit in gay men's lives.


The Sinfulness of Homosexuality


Proposal for a study of gay nondualism


Priestly Sexuality


Having a Church to Leave


Harold Cole on Beauty


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Marian Doctrines: Immaculate Conception & Assumption


Not lashed to the prayer-post


Monastic or Chaste Homosexuality


Is It Time to Grow Up? Confronting the Aging Process


Notes on Licking  (July, 1984)


Redeem Orlando


Gay Consciousness changing the world by Shokti LoveStar


Alexander Renault interviews Toby Johnson



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Mystical Vision


"The Evolution of Gay Identity"


"St. John of the Cross & the Dark Night of the Soul."


Avalokiteshvara at the Baths


 Eckhart's Eye


Let Me Tell You a Secret


Religious Articulations of the Secret


The Collective Unconscious


Driving as Spiritual Practice


Meditation


Historicity as Myth


Pilgrimage


No Stealing


Next Step in Evolution


The New Myth


The Moulting of the Holy Ghost


Gaia is a Bodhisattva


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The Hero's Journey


The Hero's Journey as archetype -- GSV 2016


The  Gay Hero Journey (shortened)


You're On Your Own


Superheroes


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Seeing Differently


Teenage Prostitution and the Nature of Evil


Allah Hu: "God is present here"


 
Adam and Steve


The Life is in the Blood



Gay retirement and the "freelance monastery"


Seeing with Different Eyes


Facing the Edge: AIDS as an occasion for spiritual wisdom


What are you looking for in a gay science fiction novel?


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The Vision


The mystical experience at the Servites'  Castle in Riverside


A  Most Remarkable Synchronicity in Riverside


The Great Dance according to C.S.Lewis


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The Techniques Of The World Saviors

Part 1: Brer Rabbit and the Tar-Baby


Part 2: The Bodhisattva Avalokiteshvara


Part 3: Jesus and the Resurrection


Part 4: A Course in Miracles


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The Secret of the Clear Light


Understanding the Clear Light


Mobius Strip


Finding Your Tiger Face


How Gay Souls Get Reincarnated


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Joseph Campbell, the Hero's Journey, and the modern Gay Hero-- a five part presentation on YouTube


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About Alien Abduction


In honor of Sir Arthur C Clarke


Karellen was a homosexual


The D.A.F.O.D.I.L. Alliance


Intersections with the movie When We Rise


More about Gay Mental Health


Psych Tech Training


Toby at the California Institute


The Rainbow Flag


Ideas for gay mythic stories


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People


Kip and Toby, Activists


Toby's friend and nicknamesake Toby Marotta.


Harry Hay, Founder of the gay movement


About Hay and The New Myth


About Karl Heinrich Ulrichs, the first man to really "come out"


About Michael Talbot, gay mystic


About Fr. Bernard Lynch


About Richard Baltzell


About Guy Mannheimer


About David Weyrauch


About Dennis Paddie


About Ask the Fire


About Arthur Evans


About Christopher Larkin


About Mark Thompson


About Sterling Houston


About Michael Stevens


The Alamo Business Council


Our friend Tom Nash


Second March on Washington


The Gay Spirituality Summit in May 2004 and the "Statement of Spirituality"


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Book Reviews



Be Done on Earth by Howard E. Cook


Pay Me What I'm Worth by Souldancer


The Way Out by Christopher L  Nutter


The Gay Disciple by John Henson


Art That Dares by Kittredge Cherry


Coming Out, Coming Home by Kennth A. Burr


Extinguishing the Light by B. Alan Bourgeois


Over Coffee: A conversation For Gay Partnership & Conservative Faith by D.a. Thompson


Dark Knowledge by Kenneth Low


Janet Planet by Eleanor Lerman


The Kairos by Paul E. Hartman


Wrestling with Jesus by D.K.Maylor


Kali Rising by Rudolph Ballentine


The Missing Myth by Gilles Herrada


The Secret of the Second Coming by Howard E. Cook


The Scar Letters: A Novel by Richard Alther


The Future is Queer by Labonte & Schimel


Missing Mary by Charlene Spretnak


Gay Spirituality 101 by Joe Perez


Cut Hand: A Nineteeth Century Love Story on the American Frontier by Mark Wildyr


Radiomen by Eleanor Lerman


Nights at Rizzoli by Felice Picano


The Key to Unlocking the Closet Door by Chelsea Griffo


The Door of the Heart by Diana Finfrock Farrar


Occam’s Razor by David Duncan


Grace and Demion by Mel White


Gay Men and The New Way Forward by Raymond L. Rigoglioso


The Dimensional Stucture of Consciousness by Samuel Avery


The Manly Pursuit of Desire and Love by Perry Brass


Love Together: Longtime Male Couples on Healthy Intimacy and Communication by Tim Clausen


War Between Materialism and Spiritual by Jean-Michel Bitar


The Serpent's Gift: Gnostic Reflections on the Study of Religion by Jeffrey J. Kripal


Esalen: America and the Religion of No Religion by Jeffrey J. Kripal


The Invitation to Love by Darren Pierre


Brain, Consciousness, and God: A Lonerganian Integration by Daniel A Helminiak


A Walk with Four Spiritual Guides by Andrew Harvey


Can Christians Be Saved? by Stephenson & Rhodes


The Lost Secrets of the Ancient Mystery Schools by Stephenson & Rhodes


Keys to Spiritual Being: Energy Meditation and Synchronization Exercises by Adrian Ravarour


In Walt We Trust by John Marsh


Solomon's Tantric Song by Rollan McCleary


A Special Illumination by Rollan McCleary


Aelred's Sin by Lawrence Scott


Fruit Basket by Payam Ghassemlou


Internal Landscapes by John Ollom


Princes & Pumpkins by David Hatfield Sparks


Yes by Brad Boney


Blood of the Goddess by William Schindler


Roads of Excess, Palaces of Wisdom by Jeffrey Kripal


Evolving Dharma by Jay Michaelson


Jesus in Salome's Lot by Brett W. Gillette


The Man Who Loved Birds by Fenton Johnson


The Vatican Murders by Lucien Gregoire


"Sex Camp" by Brian McNaught


Out & About with Brewer & Berg
Episode One: Searching for a New Mythology



The Soul Beneath the Skin by David Nimmons


Out on Holy Ground by Donald Boisvert


The Revotutionary Psychology of Gay-Centeredness by Mitch Walker


Out There by Perry Brass


The Crucifixion of Hyacinth by Geoff Puterbaugh


The Silence of Sodom by Mark D Jordan


It's Never About What It's About by Krandall Kraus and Paul Borja


ReCreations, edited by Catherine Lake


Gospel: A Novel by WIlton Barnhard


Keeping Faith: A Skeptic’s Journey by Fenton Johnson


Dating the Greek Gods
by Brad Gooch


Telling Truths in Church by Mark D. Jordan


The Substance of God by Perry Brass


The Tomcat Chronicles by Jack Nichols


10 Smart Things Gay Men Can Do to Improve Their Lives by Joe Kort


Jesus and the Shamanic Tradition of Same Sex Love by Will Roscoe


The Third Appearance by Walter Starcke


The Last Hours of Ancient Sunlight by Thom Hartmann


Surviving and Thriving After a Life-Threatening Diagnosis by Bev Hall


Men, Homosexuality, and the Gods by Ronald Long

An Interview with Ron Long


Queering Creole Spiritual Traditons by Randy Conner & David Sparks

An Interview with Randy Conner


Pain, Sex and Time by Gerald Heard


Sex and the Sacred by Daniel Helminiak


Blessing Same-Sex Unions by Mark Jordan


Rising Up by Joe Perez


Soulfully Gay by Joe Perez


That Undeniable Longing by Mark Tedesco


Vintage: A Ghost Story by Steve Berman


Wisdom for the Soul by Larry Chang


MM4M a DVD by Bruce Grether


Double Cross by David Ranan


The Transcended Christian by Daniel Helminiak


Jesus in Love by Kittredge Cherry


In the Eye of the Storm by Gene Robinson


The Starry Dynamo by Sven Davisson


Life in Paradox by Fr Paul Murray


Spirituality for Our Global Community by Daniel Helminiak


Gay & Healthy in a Sick Society by Robert A. Minor


Coming Out: Irish Gay Experiences by Glen O'Brien


Queering Christ by Robert Goss


Skipping Towards Gomorrah by Dan Savage


The Flesh of the Word by Richard A Rosato


Catland by David Garrett Izzo


Tantra for Gay Men by Bruce Anderson


Yoga & the Path of the Urban Mystic by Darren Main


Simple Grace by Malcolm Boyd


Seventy Times Seven by Salvatore Sapienza


What Does "Queer" Mean Anyway? by Chris Bartlett


Critique of Patriarchal Reasoning by Arthur Evans


Gift of the Soul by Dale Colclasure & David Jensen


Legend of the Raibow Warriors by Steven McFadden


The Liar's Prayer by Gregory Flood


Lovely are the Messengers by Daniel Plasman


The Human Core of Spirituality by Daniel Helminiak


3001: The Final Odyssey by Arthur C. Clarke


Religion and the Human Sciences by Daniel Helminiak


Only the Good Parts by Daniel Curzon


Four Short Reviews of Books with a Message


Life Interrupted by Michael Parise


Confessions of a Murdered Pope by Lucien Gregoire


The Stargazer's Embassy by Eleanor Lerman


Conscious Living, Conscious Aging by Ron Pevny


Footprints Through the Desert by Joshua Kauffman


True Religion by J.L. Weinberg


The Mediterranean Universe by John Newmeyer


Everything is God by Jay Michaelson


Reflection by Dennis Merritt


Everywhere Home by Fenton Johnson


Hard Lesson by James Gaston


God vs Gay? by Jay Michaelson


The Gate of Tears: Sadness and the Spiritual Path by Jay Michaelson


Roxie & Fred by Richard Alther


Not the Son He Expected by Tim Clausen


The 9 Realities of Stardust by Bruce P. Grether


The Afterlife Revolution by Anne & Whitley Strieber


AIDS Shaman: Queer Spirit Awakening by Shokti Lovestar


Facing the Truth of Your Life by Merle Yost


The Super Natural by Whitley Strieber & Jeffrey J Kripal


Secret Body by Jeffrey J Kripal


In Hitler's House by Jonathan Lane


Walking on Glory by Edward Swift


The Paradox of Porn by Don Shewey


Is Heaven for Real? by Lucien Gregoire


Enigma by Lloyd Meeker


Scissors, Paper, Rock by Fenton Johnson




Toby Johnson's Books on Gay Men's Spiritualities:




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Gay Perspective

Things Our [Homo]sexuality
Tells Us about the
Nature of God and
the Universe


Gay Perspective audiobook
Gay Perspective is available as an audiobook narrated by Matthew Whitfield. Click here







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Gay Spirituality

Gay Identity and 
the Transformation of
Human Consciousness



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Gay Spirituality   is now available as an audiobook, beautifully narrated by John Sipple. Click here








charmed lives
Charmed Lives: Gay Spirit in Storytelling

edited by
Toby Johnson
& Steve Berman







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Secret Matter

Lammy Award Winner for Gay Science Fiction

updated







Getting Life
Getting Life in Perspective

A Fantastical Romance





Getting
Life in Perspective audiobook
Getting Life in Perspective is available as an audiobook narrated by Alex Beckham. Click here 






The Fourth Quill

The Fourth Quill

originally published as PLAGUE




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The Fourth Quill is available as an audiobook, narrated by Jimmie Moreland. Click here






Two
Two Spirits: A Story of Life with the Navajo

with Walter L. Williams




Two Spirits
audiobookTwo Spirits  is available as an audiobook  narrated by Arthur Raymond. Click here






Finding Your Own True Myth - The Myth of the Great Secret III
Finding Your Own True Myth:
What I Learned from Joseph Campbell

The Myth of the Great Secret III








In
Search of God in the Sexual Underworld
In Search of God  in the Sexual Underworld










The Myth of the Great Secret II

The Myth of the Great Secret: An Appreciation of Joseph Campbell.

This was the second edition of this book.




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Toby Johnson's titles are available in other ebook formats from Smashwords.




"I Want to Know Them All"


by Houston Wood

Editor's Note: Houston Wood was one of the first real "hippies" I met when I moved to San Francisco in 1970. He was a fellow student at the California Institute of Asian Studies (now C.I.I.S.). Though a straight man (now paterfamilias of a family of five, I believe, living in Hawaii and teaching at the University of Hawaii), he exemplified for me the openness and celebration of diversity that was central to the Countercultural thinking of the "flower children." He was fascinated with me as a former monk and as a gay man; and, through his interest, helped me to see the consistency of the two roles and to understand the spiritual and mystical roots of my sexual identity. The following piece Houston wrote for me in a sort of gesture of highly etheralized homoeroticism -- the sex never actually occurred and I was never ordained to the priesthood. But it is a wonderful statement, I believe, of the myth of the Bodhisattva Avalokiteshvara.

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The night we first made love we lay awake touching and laughing about our touches till nearly dawn. I rose soon after sleep finally caught up with us to celebrate mass. A's dozing image visited me as weary but cleansed I recited the sweet liturgy. Church affairs kept me from my room until early afternoon. A was gone. He'd left the bed neatly made and had folded the bedspread halfway, inviting me to nap. Full of his kindness, I climbed in and discovered this long note under my pillow:

Brother in God, From the two of us, the one of us, I passed softly into a dream (puny name for our deeper worlds!). Floating above the bed, I looked down on your shining sleeping face. Your lips puckered and grinned, as if you knew I was watching but did not want to spoil my fun by opening your eyes. I glanced about your room to share a conspirator's smile with the spirits I knew must always be watching you here. "I want to know everyone in the world," I exulted to them and at once the warm luminescence of the shadows glowed full awake and I flew beyond your room toward a welcoming multitude so large I knew it contained every soul on earth. There was such a scrumptious swirl of colors there, of ages, fashions; of rich and poor; beautiful and powerfully homely. I glided one to another, always with a mutual peering and interpenetration of eyes, a glimpse of their kernels, of them into mine. Brief discovering and clean delight. After a score I realized I was to be carried to each, three billion, and gave a thought command to your spirits granting me my wish, to slow down, to allow me time to know each person better.

My wish was granted and I began to embrace them, deeply and completely, before moving on, ever moving on.

My flight was still too swift. I could but begin to establish something rich and unique with one when my body glided to the summons of the next. Slower yet, I ordered. And it was so. Now I could dawdle and even share some conversation before cruising on.

Thus I passed through perhaps a hundred: bushmen, Frenchmen, Bedouins, gypsies, children, the old and dying, and though the pace yet seemed hasty, I accepted it until a new desire came over me: to go back and revisit some I had already met. Old friends, a respite from the ever new.

The wish produced its fruit and so after every fourth or fifth new person I was flown back to an old one. And these familiar faces, with their sweetly remembered bodies and voices, were as enchanting as the new, sweeter even than they had been when first we'd met.

Slower yet, I called at last, wanting to share days with many that I found, to pause long enough to caress and make love to others.

I began to deliberate with each one how long I would tarry. To will my way back to particular others when their imagined faces warmed my memory.

But it was wearying being so completely in control. I constantly had to think and judge and decide: who, how long, when. And though I asked and tried to gauge the desires of my friends, I knew I was not always choosing well. So I willed away my control. Let them come and go as they themselves choose, I said, and suddenly I found I had returned to the familiar earth-bound time rhythms, except I knew there would be no end, no death, until I had satisfied my dream and knew them all.

I began taking time out from my friends and lovers, old and new, to rest and rejoice with but myself. It was like visitng my oldest friend. I reviewed my loving past, fantasized my sweet future, returning always to the present of others fuller of appreciation for them and for myself.

As I returned so refreshed one time I watched the people drawing near and recognized yet another flaw in the game I'd created. All came to me at their own pleasure, to be sure, but they were still uncomfortably under my will. It added an alien desire to them, a part of me and my pecularities. It stripped them of a portion of their own uniqueness, of what I most desired to know, so this attitude too I willed away. Now some would never come, would never want to meet me. Others would come in anger, or to use and exploit me. No matter. I didn't want a world where everyone had my desires. And, there were enough who came as before, a full infinite lifetime's worth, and all were now entirely themselves.

But oh, I thought, these are but the ones alive as my body slept in Father Toby's bed. What of all the jewels of the past, and the future ones. I must go to them. And not as myself but as their contemporary, lest I disturb them in ways neither of us could ever comprehend. I must die and be reborn. I must have been dying and being reborn over and over throughout the ages of man.

And, I saw, I must not know it, not too consciously or readily anyway, unless those in the age also knew it. Else again I would not belong, not embrace them as I wished, human being to human being.

Oh, and to know all people -- thoughts flooded in upon me, complexities, multiplying upon one another -- I must know them in every situation, every moment of their lives. Not as it had been, merely when they were alone with me, but also when the two of us were together with others, every conceivable combination of others. And not merely from within my single perspective but from every possible perspective, from within the mind of every person they ever see or slightly know. And, of course, I must also experience them from within the swarming flow of themselves.

There must always be time for rest as well. Years, sometimes entire lifetimes spent with no other ones, learning only who one is alone, and what in solitude one may become.

And always this knowing -- the final insight which sunk me to my knees and brought the laughter of your spirits to my ears -- always it must come without simultaneous awareness of what is going on. My enjoying everyone from every possible direction must not be muddied by the remembrance that it is after all but myself in disguise taking the place of others in order to know them all, to experience it all.

Floating slowly above the patiently waiting mass I reviewed these discoveries and uttered a final wish I knew would at once be granted. So I might know everyone and experience everything, through your spirits, I ordered the cosmos: make the world unfold from beginning to end not once but an infinite number of times. Grant me a universe with infinite time breathing upon but finite matter. Every combination of events that can happen, then, will happen not once but again and again. Each time through I am to be placed within only one person but, eventually, will find myself in that person an infinite number of times, as with all other people. From man's appearance to destruction, the cycles will be in trillions of years perhaps, with each new stream differing from the previous one in but the placement of a snowflake, or the singing of a song, or the birth of a sparrow. One cosmic exhalation will be the exact replica of some other loop in every numberless detail up to a point when maybe man will blow up the planet or an extra baby be born or a screen door be slammed.

And I'll be there each time, every time, eventually experiencing every possible nuance and convolution the human brain is capable of experiencing. I'll be buried within one person, always only one, but in the event everyone. There, wherever, everywhere, I'll scratch out my life within them amidst all the other others fate leads me to see, love, hate or pass by. They'll be great suffering and pain in the cycles, long ages of darkness and aimless cruelties. And no matter how lost I become, no further wish can ever be permitted to rescind this one. No more changes at my will.

You spirits too must abandon the earth and watch only from above. So I and all the earth beings will never perceive that I live within every one, at once lost and at home. That is all by a choice I once made to will away my will, to fulfill my deepest desire. So each of my lives and each other woman or man's life will be with aloneness, with drift within a tension between their own imagination and that of those they meet. One's own experience always will seem to be opposed to the others. And some few will rely solely on themselves and find others a dreadful weight. And others will experience only as they judge, often wrongly, others would have them experience. While most will wash about in an in-between state, attempting the impossible of at once serving their own dreams and that of others. And whatever each person concocts from this melange will be him or herself, and real. Everyone will inhabit a reality they construct.

And every one's world will reveal truth, with no common grounds for a full conjoining among human beings. And in such a swarm no one will ever rise above their own dark alcove, no one will ever remember who they are and where they've been. Never have the slightest glimpse of all this. No one ever, except at extremely rare moments, when they love themselves completely and at once most desires to leave themselves. Extraordinarily rare, fleeting seconds of miracle and revelation. Like once in the lifetimes of some fated one of me who awakening in the bed of a new lover looks down upon their shining, sleeping face and finds themself looking back. And recalls in the ensuing swirl that they've been there before, sometimes from the side they're now on, sometimes from within the body of the lover. Weeps to remember they have been in everyone, have themselves caused all the pain and all the joy. Shall be in each again and do it again. And again.

Whereupon I'll collapse into sleep and live a thing called a dream where your spirits will interfere and reveal to me the giddy truth, which leaves me, once awake, able to scratch about it like this. Which readily dissipates the sublime fuzz, I'll discover, melts it into uncertainties and doubt, and so creates life's energy one more: I want to know them all.

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Toby Johnson, PhD is author of nine books: three non-fiction books that apply the wisdom of his teacher and "wise old man," Joseph Campbell to modern-day social and religious problems, four gay genre novels that dramatize spiritual issues at the heart of gay identity, and two books on gay men's spiritualities and the mystical experience of homosexuality and editor of a collection of "myths" of gay men's consciousness. 

Johnson's book GAY SPIRITUALITY: The Role of Gay Identity in the Transformation of Human Consciousness won a Lambda Literary Award in 2000.

His  GAY PERSPECTIVE: Things Our [Homo]sexuality Tells Us about the Nature of God and the Universe was nominated for a Lammy in 2003. They remain in print.

FINDING YOUR OWN TRUE MYTH: What I Learned from Joseph Campbell: The Myth of the Great Secret III tells the story of Johnson's learning the real nature of religion and myth and discovering the spiritual qualities of gay male consciousness.

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